I think that having a critically ill first born child has definitely had an impact on my parenting of our younger daughter. My son was diagnosed with cancer sort of out of nowhere. We did not have cancer in our family. Cancer was not something that happened to us. It might happen to other people. But then it did. Our son was diagnosed with stage four of this incredibly aggressive form of cancer. When that happened to us, it really made me realize that anything can happen in life and I do think that I feel more vulnerable. On a positive note, I think that going through this with our son has made me realize how fragile life is and how it can all be gone in one second. Spending really, really quality time with my daughter is extremely important to me because of that.