Not wanting to have sex after birth is completely normal. You are not crazy. It is okay. A lot of things have gone on that has been traumatic to the body. A lot of times after we have a baby, we are not ready to endure one more moment of anything that is going to be uncomfortable or painful. It's okay. This goes for whether you've had a c-section or a vaginal birth, whether you had an episiotomy or not. It can be very scary. First of all, don't do it until the doctor has given you the okay. He is not being cruel to you or your partner, it is for a reason. You are healing, so make sure you heed the advice of your doctor. When you've been given the okay by the doctor, just make sure you are okay. Talk to your partner about what's going on and how you feel about it. Make sure that you don't do it until you are absolutely okay to do it. I promise you it's not going to be that bad, and you are going to get through it.